I should just say it

I should just say it, shouldn't I?
I should just go and say it when I'm sober.
I should just put it out there. It doesn't matter that nothing would result from it. Because it wouldn't.
I should just do that, so that I have nothing to occupy my mind unnecessarily.

THEN WHY DON'T I?

Well, lots of reasons. I don't want to hurt anyone, I don't want anyone to dislike me. I don't want anyone to feel awkward around me. But maybe it would only make that person feel good about himself (yeah, I shouldn't write herself, because it isn't, and it's quite obvious it isn't). I don't know.
But things could get awkward. And since nothing would result from it, I simply shouldn't do it.
But it's Catch 22.
For g-ds sake, stop it, woman!!