You think I'm testy?

Well, guess why?

All my friends have lately started to either ignore me, scold me in public, reveal my secrets to other, call me fat, or just being a pain in the -ss. Yeah, -SS.

Well, not as much the last thing, but all the previous examples have been happening way too often lately.

It's happening again, Josephine.
People are starting to take you for granted.
Some people might call me a baby for "needing too much attention". BUT THAT IS NOT THE CASE. I just can't understand how people can speak so well of me to my face, and then all of a sudden, I don't exist.

It just hurts too much.
I just want stable relationships. Not even my closest male friend, I can trust anymore. Not even him. Not my closest female friend either.
NOONE.

Well, probably one friend of mine. He is way too good of a person to ever hurt me, and/or actually MISS the fact that he just hurt me. And in Sweden there are a few others who can see that.

I just don't get it.

Why am I so easy to ignore all of a sudden? I NEVER take people for granted, at least not the ones I care about. So that must mean that nobody cares about me. And I'm not gonna lie; that hurts.