Where is my superman...

Where is my superman..or my superwoman. The person that I would actually look up to. I keep recieving bad news on everyone I know. Nobody seems to keep up to my standards. Nobody is perfect. Well, yeah, everyone keeps telling me that as well, but it doesn't matter.

What if one finds himself/herself to be the most perfect person in the Universe. Then what? Then awaits a lifetime of misery? With just hating everyone around him/her for the rest of its awful existence here on Earth?

I'm not depressed. I'm annoyed. And yes, my belly is aching, so I know why. Thank you so much for making me bleed for a week without dying. Thank you for making me a freak.
Thank you for making me crave butter on a daily basis for 2 days before the bleeding process begins so that I not only do I have a belly ache for a week, but I also feel fat and unhealthy for several weeks after that. And then it all starts over again. Sometimes I wish I was androgynous. Sometimes I wish I had no gender. Then, not only would the belly aches stop, but also this insatiable search for a superman/superwoman.

And no, I don't mean necessarily in a relationship, you should have gotten that by now, considering that I wrote i want to be androgynous.
Well, maybe it's the wrong word. What I meant was - i don't want to have neither female nor male parts. It's just a simple, stupid part of life. And that is still the ONLY thing that people think about these days. AND IT MAKES ME COMPLETELY SICK. I HATE EVERYONE. I feel so fre-king alone, because I am the only one who doesn't want to bring home some "HOT GUY" every g-d d-mn time I go out. I am the only one who doesn't seem to desire guys because they made me smile once. I am the only one who can see through the sh-t guys annoying tempts to charm me and everyone else. WHY CAN'T THEY SEE THAT? WHY ARE THEY SO WEAK?

Where are all the people?
Where is my superman.