I haven't seen you in ages...

I haven't seen you in ages... I miss you so much..
When is this going to stop? Never? Well, SCR-W YOU, WORLD.

It doesn't matter how many friends I have. How good they are. How many "cute guys" I met along the way.
It doesn't matter how good work is. It doesn't matter that I've haven't been this thin since I was 15. It doesn't matter that I have more fun than I've ever had. It doesn't matter that I haven't had a cold for 4 months. It doesn't matter that I hadn't cried in 2 months. Nothing matters.

Because I don't have you here. WHY does a person matter that much?
Because you are the only one I've ever loved. And you see, I used to think I couldn't love. And when I did, and lost it, I think that was my only chance. And no, I am not crying because I feel sorry for myself, I am crying because I miss you. It's this LONGING, this LACK OF YOU that hurts me PHYSCIALLY.

It doesn't matter that the weather has been great today. It doesn't matter that I had a wonderful dinner tonight. It doesn't matter that Battle of the bands is on this week-end or that we have two gigs planned out. Or that I love that song that I wrote a month ago. Still.

I miss you.