I'm flattered

I have been of the opinion for a long time, that whenever someone actually makes an effort to make you feel good it is false and I have never appreciated those attempts. For example when someone calls you just to hear how you are going.
Or when someone openly says that they think you are an amazing person.

But I have experienced that now.

I feel flattered. And it gave me this tingle in my belly. I think that's what people call a true sense of happiness. Though brief, but still happiness.

And since it's not a common experience in my world, I am trying to hold onto it.

I can still get disappointed, I guess. Like so many people do. But well, trying so many new things out nowadays (which I actually have) has made me impermeable to disappointment. (I hope that's a real sentence).

Maybe all it took was just to get through the hard bit, and now I am a bit less prone to start crying randomly because something didn't turn out the way I thought it would?

Or maybe this is all just my imagination, and I'm still an old hag, who is going to be sad tomorrow.
Always sad tomorrow.

RIPMAMT