Monthly breakdowns..

Maybe the word "breakdown" is a bit too strong.. but it seems that I am a monthly animal. Every month, I have this incredible need of having someone close, just lying there. WHY IS THAT? I HATE HUMAN TOUCH, RIGHT? I'm not so sure anymore.

And seriously, I have to forget about this obsession of mine. For G-ds sake. And everyone keeps saying that I am going to "find a guy one day". Yeah, whatev. I guess I have always tried to look down on the fact that we need a person to love. That should be superfluous, but it isn't. And I guess it's because we have to have someone we know that we can just sit next to and still enjoy the company of. We just DO.

And I need to have someone here. For me, for once.