Please don't be dead...

I miss you so much. It often feels like you were my only real friend. I didn't have to hide anything from you and I never wanted to. I love you. And I miss you so much. I know I've already written that. But I miss you so much. And as in every love song in the whole world; everything reminds me of you. I love you. I love you I love you.

But I don't think you ever think of me. You're in your own world..thinking about your own problems, of course...which is understandable, considering what you've been through.

Sometimes I stop and think that maybe you're not here anymore. What if you're gone. And I found myself wishing and hoping and even praying that you're not dead. It doesn't matter that I won't see you again. Ever. I just want you to be alive and be well. Because I love you.
I want you to be happy...preferrably with me, but since that won't happen, I'll just settle for you being happy...

Please don't be dead...